Group Projects: My Nemesis

I have said it all along my journey, but it bares repeating given the sheer amount of stress anxiety they cause, GROUP PROJECTS are the WORST thing ever!  If I ever thought I had it bad before, well, those experiences were just breaking me in for what was to come this semester.  Today I will turn in the worst, most awful group project of all times.  It is worth 35% of my grade.  Usually, I just give in and do the whole thing, but this time I couldn’t.  I just couldn’t do it.  I have too much on my plate and frankly the whole thing was a disaster.  So, for the first time EVER in my life I am turning something in with my name on it that I do not feel meets the standards I set for myself.  I feel heartbroken about it, but I am human and I can only do so much.

After our presentation today, at a CONFERENCE, I might add, not just our CLASSROOM, I have to write a reflection about my experience completing this project.  I am going to have to really pray about how I approach this reflection. I don’t want to come off as a whiny complainer, and I do not like to throw people under the bus, but I also have to be honest.  I trust God will give me the words. Maybe our presentation will go so well and those who chose not to contribute will shine like the stars in the universe?  It is possible and this although annoying would be the only redemption for them at this point. On the bright side, I did have one active member who regularly communicated with me, at least this week. She filled in the gaps and then downloaded and edited the final draft and sent it to me to print.  She showed she cared and was invested in the project and really that is all is required from me, at least.

We will see what happens…


5 more weeks

I cannot wait for a day when I do not have to think about homework! Seriously! This is horrible. Kiley was supposed to have a soccer tournament in North Carolina this past weekend, but it was canceled before we left because of the expected weather.  All I can say is “THANK GOD.”  I wasn’t planning on going, only Brian and Kiley.  This meant I would have had another weekend without reinforcements to complete all of my homework & studying.  Since school started, Brian has not been home for a single weekend to help.  I mean, he has been home for a few hours here and there, but nothing that has been helpful to the cause whatsoever. It has been a nightmare!  With the tournament canceled, I sat in my office for 14 hours on Saturday and most of the day on Sunday.  I left Brian in charge.  He did a great job, but I still had way too many interruptions.  I am still the “go to” person for all inquiries, like, “Can you and dad give me the money to buy the new game?”,”Can I go my friends house and play?”, Where are Landen’s clean clothes?”, “What’s for lunch?” and so on.  Even when everyone is gone, they still text me and then the stupid dogs bark or need to be fed.  I cannot wait to be “mom” again.

Today, I still have to write 1 more paper I didn’t get to this weekend, do research for a presentation, and attempt to go over an entire module (there’s that stupid word again!) all before 1PM.  Plus, I have to put dinner in the crockpot, type up the weekly schedule, and take a shower.  Oh, and take care of Landen who is currently clinging to my legs with his cold hands. It is 9:50AM. Fun times ahead.