Yep. Here we go. What does a 30 + 2 year old wife and mother of a 13, 10, & 7 year old think about the night before her first day of college attempt round 2? I will tell you. She is wondering where’s the manual for this scenario. Oh, that’s right. I will write it in 4-5 years when I graduate from college and make millions.
Here is what I am not thinking about though. I am not thinking about homework or curriculum. I am not thinking about how I am going to find my classes: the buildings or locations. I am not thinking about my professors. I am not even thinking about other students and whether or not I will be the only adult in my classes.
What I am thinking about is:
1. Should I carry a backpack or is that lame?
2. If I carry a backpack, what kind of backpack will I carry?
3. Should I take my laptop or should I have bought an IPAD?
4. Do I need paper? Or a pencil? Oh no! I may need a pencil. Do I even own a pencil?
5. Why did I choose a college without a Starbucks on campus or even nearby?
6. What am I going to wear? Aubrey will make fun of me if I wear my summer uniform: sundress & flip-flops.
As you can see, the important things are weighing very heavily on my mind 🙂
All joking aside (although I am really thinking about those things), I am mostly thinking about the impact this life decision I have made will affect my family’s day to day life. Things will be crazy and things will be chaotic, but realistically this description is no different than the norm. At least by doing this, I will be working toward a goal and setting an example in the process. When I told my mother-in-law I was planning to go back to school, she was excited & supportive. She also said something I will never forget. After talking about how crazy things were going to be she said, “The time will pass no matter what you do.” That simple phrase has stuck with me. She is exactly right! Time passes and it passes quickly. It is imperative we put our time to good use.
Going back to school is not something I have decided on a whim or without prayer. God has led me to this place. I will only get through this by staying focused and relying upon His strength. Proverbs 4:25-27 says,
25 Look straight ahead,and fix your eyes on what lies before you.
26 Mark out a straight path for your feet; stay on the safe path.
27 Don’t get sidetracked;keep your feet from following evil.
This is the only way I will be able to pull this off 🙂